Missing them alot...

Missing them alot... *hugss & kissess*

Wat Am I Doing??

Wat am i doing now??? Should be studying instead but the mood is just not there..... Have exams everyday in the following week and here I am still reading manga AGAIN!!!

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Love is always patient and kind,

it is never jealous.

Love is never boastful or conceited,

it is never rude or selfish,

it does not take offence

and it is not resentful...

Expectation..

Studying microb half way and suddenly felt like crying. Many reasons.. 1) had a small fight with my roommate 2) info cant go into my brain anymore.. sigh... now dont feel like studying anymore. But cant. I already pend respiratory, so cant pend my enteric too. If not, i'll be dead the following week as there'll be std colloq. sob sob.. looked at my board and saw this picture of me and my cousins. Made me think of them... All of them are someone now.. They had all achieve wat they want. Either having high paying jobs or studying master. Even my sis and bro are doing better than me though they're still studying. This make me wonder if i'm the stupidest of them all. Though i'm studying medicine, but then studying in russia sometimes make me feel that i dont deserve to be a doctor in the future cos their system are so much easier for one to be doctor compare to other countries. Everyone is expecting me to do very well. Wat to do, 1st doctor in the family. Making them proud it seems.... But am I??

Should I??

Each day, this weird feeling grows more and more deep. How can i make it stop? Or should i just let it be? Maybe it's just me or do you feel it too? I wonder if i should tell you??

Ti Amo...

Ti Amo, I Love You, Wo Ai Ni, я люблю тебя or any other languages that you can understand...

It's all that i want to say to you.....

A Touch Never Felt

How can you ache and crave for someone's touch

When you have never felt it?

I do this for yours, though,

And the yearning grows more each day

I have never wanted anything in my life

As much as I want you

When you whisper such sweet love

In my ear when we talk

You make me melt into a puddle

Of complete helplessness

You have become my every waking thought

And my every dream at night

I breathe in so hard

Trying to catch my breath when we can't talk

I close my eyes so tight

Hoping when I open them you will be there

But I know I have to wait

Until the time is right

It seems so far away

That I think I am losing my mind

I want to breathe in your scent

And keep it with me all day long

I want to taste your love for me

By kissing your sweet lips

I want to feel your body next to me

So when you leave for awhile I can hold on

I just want you to know

That I really do love you

When the day comes and we are together

You will always know and feel this

I will always hug, kiss and love you

Every moment of the day and night

...You will never have another touch unfelt

Carola Dittmann McJunkin

Wishing..

Wishing for another wish.. Am stingy right? =)