@#$%

Unfair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Life is always unfair. There's nothing much we can do about it but to complain and show our anger. AARRGGGHHH!!!! But then i cant show it out cos ppl will think i'm jealous. But then I'm jealous. Very!! It's not that i mind taking exam but then for ppl who dont deserve aftomat, and they got it and no need to sit for exam, that is really making me angry. I studied like mad and didnt even get aftomat and only got a 4 for final, and others dont even need to study and then have an easy way to go through all other colloqs and finally got an aftomat. That is really f#$%-ing unfair!!!!!!!! If they really deserve it, i wont mind (eg: my groupmates) but for others............. Sigh.... What to do? haiz.. just forget about it and study harder lor next time... Enough of the sad story, now comes the happy part. I finally finish my 2nd year!!! Having holiday for the next 2 weeks b4 practical starts. So i'm going to sleep and eat puas puas!!! =D

Good things..

Good things starts to happen on me. Passed my biochem, demolished my cupboard, fixed in the new cupboard (after waiting for almost 8 months), clean up the whole room, etc... Happy happy.. Hope everything else will goes on well too.. All i need is for everything to be 'sun sun lei lei' for the coming days...

Beginning of my 22nd year of life...

Started my 22nd year of life with no hot water for the next 2 weeks!!!!!!! Sigh... Freaking cold since it's raining. So end up boiling water to take shower b4 going out. Luckily that's the only sad thing that happen to me on my b'day. Went ashan citi to buy ingredients to bake cake. Felt like baking choc cakes for my frens. =) Planned to go bbq for my b'day but end up celebrating in the hostel since it's wet outside. But other than that, everything went on fine. Ate alot, talk to my frens and dance till 1am. Luckily there's only russian class the next day. Had feelings that everything will go well for the coming days. *pray hard*...

Bad day..

Today is so not my day... had fever last night and slight diarrhea today morning. Went for microb and didnt pass anything.. ='( all my weekend's hardwork went down the drain just like that. It is sooooooo unfair!!! All of them can pass that easily and why cant i???!!!! @%#$ Walked back alone and cry all the way back. Reach hostel, took my shower and chatted with my sis and cry again. Sigh.... I dont care anymore. Just gonna concentrate on biochem for this week and i'll deal again with microb next week. Hate that teacher!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cant wait for this week to pass and praying hard that something good will comes along..............

ARRGGHHH!!!

I'm so distracted now.. sigh.. cant study, cant even watch a movie!! this is how distracted am i. Can u imagine how distracted am i till cant even watch a movie?? Why am i so distracted?? Only one reason...... =(

One more week...

One more week of hell and i'll be more relieve.. Though it's not the end of sem, but at least everything will be going on as i had planned. Hopefully... I'm gonna pray hard and do my best.... Just one more week.... Hang in there Wen Yi!!!!!

Dedication..

This post is dedicated to 2 close friends of mine. Just wanna say that no matter what happen, i'll always be there supporting u both emotionally, mentally and physically. Be strong and face whatever challenges that are given to you bravely. Love you guys always..

xoxo,

wenyi

Missing them alot...

Missing them alot... *hugss & kissess*

Wat Am I Doing??

Wat am i doing now??? Should be studying instead but the mood is just not there..... Have exams everyday in the following week and here I am still reading manga AGAIN!!!

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Love is always patient and kind,

it is never jealous.

Love is never boastful or conceited,

it is never rude or selfish,

it does not take offence

and it is not resentful...

Expectation..

Studying microb half way and suddenly felt like crying. Many reasons.. 1) had a small fight with my roommate 2) info cant go into my brain anymore.. sigh... now dont feel like studying anymore. But cant. I already pend respiratory, so cant pend my enteric too. If not, i'll be dead the following week as there'll be std colloq. sob sob.. looked at my board and saw this picture of me and my cousins. Made me think of them... All of them are someone now.. They had all achieve wat they want. Either having high paying jobs or studying master. Even my sis and bro are doing better than me though they're still studying. This make me wonder if i'm the stupidest of them all. Though i'm studying medicine, but then studying in russia sometimes make me feel that i dont deserve to be a doctor in the future cos their system are so much easier for one to be doctor compare to other countries. Everyone is expecting me to do very well. Wat to do, 1st doctor in the family. Making them proud it seems.... But am I??

Should I??

Each day, this weird feeling grows more and more deep. How can i make it stop? Or should i just let it be? Maybe it's just me or do you feel it too? I wonder if i should tell you??

Ti Amo...

Ti Amo, I Love You, Wo Ai Ni, я люблю тебя or any other languages that you can understand...

It's all that i want to say to you.....

A Touch Never Felt

How can you ache and crave for someone's touch

When you have never felt it?

I do this for yours, though,

And the yearning grows more each day

I have never wanted anything in my life

As much as I want you

When you whisper such sweet love

In my ear when we talk

You make me melt into a puddle

Of complete helplessness

You have become my every waking thought

And my every dream at night

I breathe in so hard

Trying to catch my breath when we can't talk

I close my eyes so tight

Hoping when I open them you will be there

But I know I have to wait

Until the time is right

It seems so far away

That I think I am losing my mind

I want to breathe in your scent

And keep it with me all day long

I want to taste your love for me

By kissing your sweet lips

I want to feel your body next to me

So when you leave for awhile I can hold on

I just want you to know

That I really do love you

When the day comes and we are together

You will always know and feel this

I will always hug, kiss and love you

Every moment of the day and night

...You will never have another touch unfelt

Carola Dittmann McJunkin

Wishing..

Wishing for another wish.. Am stingy right? =)

Chinese New Year...

This year, again, i'm celebrating my CNY in Russia. But this year, it's quite quiet.. unlike last year, it was merrier. Maybe because alot of my frens went back to M'sia. Yesterday had lunch with my groupmates. Only 12 including Yee Chiun and Kent from another group. Though only a few people, i kinda enjoyed myself. Towards the end of the small little party, we had a surprise visit from Melissa, Karine, Dominic and their gang. Hehe.. Took a few pics by Derek, our photographer =) Tried to webcam with my family but then none of them online. So i guessed they were all out celebrating. But luckily i already talked to them the day b4 when all my relatives visited my house (though talking half-way, their connection went off due to no electricity). Still, i'm very happy talking to them. Got to know my 2 new cousin sisters,Cynthia and Joey. Saw Pei Ru for the 1st time. She's soooooo adorable =) And my cousin brother introduced his korean girlfriend to me. Talked to San San jie jie for quite long (it's been long time since i chatted with her for so long). Really miss everyone alot in Malaysia.. Wish i had went back for CNY. But then, it's ok, i'll definitely go back for one of the CNY during my 6 years of studies here. So i'll wait for that day to come....

1st day, 2nd sem

Cant sleep again.. dunno y. So i'm blogging down my first day of class for my 2nd year 2nd sem. It's quite boring actually. With the holiday mood still in me, i had to start my day with biochem lec which is totally boring.. almost felt asleep. After that, it's microb class which was even more boring. Teacher didnt teach much as there're only 5 of us. Half of the group went back M'sia for holiday which is a very sad case for those of us that had no chance to go back. Came back from class, i straight watched the remaining episodes of Glee. Ate my dinner and then took a nap. Haha.. fattening right. Woke up at around 10 then took my shower then read a new manga-1/2 prince (Chris introduced it to me, quite nice and there's alot of leng chais in it). Now, 4.09 am, and i'm still fully awake. Sigh... wat to do next to make myself sleep????

Weirdest dream...

Had the weirdest dream yesterday night.. when i'm suppose to be studying for anat, i fell asleep. sigh.. This dream..... couldnt really recall about it but it's something about me going for a vacation. And during the vacation, i had to share a bed with Mr X (which i had no idea who cos couldnt see his face). It felt like as if i knew this Mr X for a very long time and i have feelings for him (haha =D i wonder who is he). We were kinda shy and tensed cos we're forced to share this bed together but then after a while, the atmosphere changed. He put his hand under me and pulled me closer. At first i'm shocked, then i relaxed into his hug and slept. I woke up from the dream the moment when i felt asleep in the dream. Wakaka =D i wonder whether i'm predicting the future or i'm too stressed up r i'm just too desperate????? LOL =D Either way, i need to concentrate to pass my exam this sat. Or else, i'm dead cos i need to fly to Egypt the next day!! Gotta go back to anat now. Gambateh!!!!!!!!!!

2nd post of the year!!

Finished my histo final exam yesterday.. hooray!! I'm so relieved that i got a 4. Though it's not a 5, but then i'm super happy. ngek ngek.. wanna know y? It's because i didnt study enough for this exam. So i didnt regret getting that mark. One more anat exam then i'm free =D Will study harder for anat cos it's harder. Off to Egypt the next day.. cant wait for that day to come.. Gambateh!!!!

1st post..

My 1st post for the new year =) yet it wont be a happy post. With the finals coming up in less than 2 weeks plus there's rat problem again in my block makes me want to scream out loud. AAAARRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sigh....... just a scream in my heart. No voice coming out. Maybe i'll do it for real under my pillow later. I'm just tired of everything..... for once, i want to be invisible and dont need to care about all the problems in the world. Though i know that the problems wont go away, but i'm tired of making the first step to solve the problems. Why cant others try to take the first move? Why am i always the one (though there are times other will but not often)? Is it in my nature to always be the one to make sure everything is alright? Why am i like that? Why cant i just dont bother about all these till others say or do something? Why????????? For once, i just want to be different....