Pheww...

At last, i cleared all my exam. Except for anat of course. But felt so relieved. My shoulder are way much lighter than usual. At last can concentrate only on anat for the weekend. Hopefully can clear everything by next week. Hope that the teacher will be more lenient. Gambateh gambateh!!

Thanks Dee and Mee...

5 more weeks to Histo final, 6 weeks to Anat final!!!! OMG and i'm not even anywhere near my target till this moment. I'm so screwed =( Though i'm now more motivated and determined to study, clearing up my colloqs, but somehow, sometimes, i'll just drift back to the me last time and lost control of myself again. Luckily i manage to gain control of my thoughts everytime this happens. Thinking bout my parents works everytime. Thinking how much hope they'd put on me, how much support they'd given me, how much money they'd saved to put me through this course, how much fight they'd gone through arguing if they'd made the right choice to send me here, how much worries they'd felt worrying if i'm healthy or doing alright here, how much sleepless night when i told them i'm sick, etc.. All these are beyond any price that anyone can pay. How can i ever repay them? I feel guilty everytime thinking of their money that i'd spent coming to Russia. With no income coming in, with Yin and William still young and need money too to study, did i made a wrong choice coming here? Maybe i should have stay studying in Malaysia. But there's nothing else that i can do after all these other than concentrating on my studies, be a doctor and make them proud...

Another month gone..

November is going to end soon and i am so out of my schedule. DAMN!! Only left another month for me to study for anat and histo. There're toooooooo many things to read and yet so little time! Help me!! sigh... this is always my problem. Last minute study everytime. Seriously need to change my attitude, if not i'll end up in a big trouble this time. One more month! One more month! sigh..... Gambateh bah....

I'm feeling blue..

I'm not sure what happened to me but i'd been feeling super moody for the past 2 weeks. Whether it is because of studies or because of MASSAD or because of something else which i dunno.. Have no mood to do anything and emotional swings are pretty frequent. What happen to me?? I just cant figure it out. Calling back home wont help either. Will only worry my parents. Who should i talk to? Who can i trust to with my dilemma? Who can give me the advide i need and want to hear? Who is the one????????

After so long..

It's been so long since i blog. Due to the new rector cancelling our hostel internet contract with Strella which left us with no internet services for about 2 months. Now with the internet connection back again (though it's super sucky), hopefully everything will goes back to normal...

Nothing had changed much in the pass 2 months other than my room arrangement and ppl (Yee Chiun is the newest member in our block =p). Hopefully i can get the cupboard done soon though i dunno when will the carpenter comes. Too many things happen in the pass 2 months, and due to my short term memory, i cant really recall them. So i wont write it down. Just check out my facebook for pictures of all the recent events that happen to me =)

Bad luck one after another...

Reach moscow safely but something else happen. Guess wat, my room got invaded by RATS!!! shit!! sigh... it's inhabitable by human. Cleaned it with my roommates and had to remove everything that's left except for my bed and tables and chairs. Have to throw the mattresses and clothes that're bitten and peed all over by the rats. Now need to make my room habital again. sigh.. currently staying in my fren's room. Dunno till when yet but hopefully soon i can move back into my room. That's not the only bad thing that happen to me. My laptop kena virus. Stupid me. Ter-downloaded trojan. Now cant even re-format it. So have to wait and c wat the seniors can do with it. If not, i'll die.... either i'll die of boredom or my dad's gonna kill me. sigh.. After all the bad things that happen to me in malaysia, now back in moscow, bad luck still continues. When will this end......

One more day

Going back moscow tomoro. Excited?? naahhh.. I dont feel that at all. Have no idea why. I just dont feel like going back at all. Just want to stay at home and do nothing. Maybe it's bcos of the 2 months holiday with me doing nothing practically. haha.. sigh... another year gone by sooo fast. Now entering second year. Having anat and histo final at the end of first sem. sigh... dunno whether can pass with better grades or not. Must study harder d... sigh...

Irresponsible person..

I'm so pissed off with someone. All bcos of him, i'm going through so much. Bcos of him i need to go all the way to shah alam to beg ppl to do a group passport for me which costed me rm 200. Bcos of him i need to pay rm 500 for a stupid visa which i can do for half the price if he had be more responsible and told me the case earlier when i asked. Bcos of him, i'm having a few sleepless night. Bcos of him... arrgghh!!!

Few more days...

OMG.. few more days to go b4 i fly back to russia. not excited at all. dont feel like going back... just want to stay in malaysia and enjoy.. 2 months past just like that.. sigh... wat to do?? i'm the one that chose this road...

3 Birthday Celebration Together =)

Celebrated my 21st birthday (which had already passed 2 months ago =D) together with my sis (her 18th birthday) and my cousin (his 24th birthday). Invited a few frens and relatives. Not a really big party but i did feel happy. Though i dont get to celebrate my 21st on the exact date, but now at least the replacement was memorable and fun. Had dinner and talk with my frens which i had not met for a long time. Catching up with frens was the best thing. Knowing how they are doing... =)

here are some pics for the day...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS!!

U're 18 d starting today.. Big girl d loh... First day of class and it's ur birthday.. I know u're very excited and sad at the same time since u cant be at home to celebrate ur birthday. But no worries, ur new frens are gonna celebrate for u. hehe.. Just enjoy ur days in college and work hard!! We'll c u when u come back on Friday k.. XOXO


p/s: here's a cake for u...

Been busy??!!

haha.. I dont think i've been busy for the pass one week since i came back from Russia. hehe ppl say when u come back from overseas, u'll be busy visiting relatives, going out with frens, etc.. but i dont seem to be doing that. y?? haha.. got la.. got go out with frens and had dinner with relatives. but i think i sleep and eat more than the time i that went out. haha.. but dun care la. there's 2 more months to go, plenty more time for me to laze and hang around. Going Hainan Island tomoro. Hopefully there's things to shop. hehe..

Home Sweet Home..

Home Sweet Home... At last.. after 10 months... I'm so happy. :D Went to eat seafood the day i landed and boasting it to my frens who are still in Russia.. ngek ngek :P And ate seafood porridge for dinner just now. hehe.. I think my colesterol level already high till the max. Nothing much had change in M'sia. The weather is still freaking hot which makes me headache.. Other than that, everywhere is still the same... Still Malaysia.. Still home....

I'm totally lost..

Feel so lost now. sigh... wanna cry d. Y my luck so bad? Been studying brainstem for the pass 3 days and she didnt pass me. sigh... Plus i waited her from 9.30 am till bout 3 pm only got to sit for the exam and she told me to go back study again. Haiz.... Now i need study again and go on wed. If i still dont pass on wed, i'm so dead cos there's no way i can sit for latin and bio finals on thurs. And i'm going back on FRIDAY!!! sigh............ i've no idea wat to do now. still need to study for bio and latin which is freaking alot. sigh..........................

Russian Doll

Went to bought sourvenirs for frens and family in China Town. Bought a few Russian Doll also known as Mathroska. There're too many designs and sizes which make me 'rambang mata'. I just dun know which one to buy cos they're all very nice. Here are a few pics on how the russian dolls that i bought look like..

This set, i saw it at Red Square and i wanted it soooo much but then... the price is 21,480 rubles which is equivalent approximately RM 2200..

It's been 10 months...

One more week to go and i'm going back M'sia!! Time passes so fast and it's been almost 10 months since i'm in Moscow, Russia. I still remembered the day when i departed from KLIA, first time looking at my hostel, first time going to uni, etc.. and now, i just cant wait for the time that i'll depart from Russia back to where i came from, where i miss most, where all my beloved ppl are... One more week Wenyi and u can go back happily enjoying 2 months of holiday b4 the next 10 months come again. One more week Wenyi, one more week.....

Dissapointment & Hope...

I wish things could have been different and work the way i wanted. But they weren't. I just have to step forward with courage and accept the way things have to be. Cos time just doesnt turn back for me to reverse all the mistake that i had done....

This is a short poem i found that expressed how i feel right now...

This morning I woke up,

Bursting with confidence,

Overflowing with excitement,

I was convinced I'd done it,

Convinced I had succeeded

When I found out the news,

I was crushed,

Feeling empty and broken,

But somehow I managed,

To pull myself together,

Determined not to cry

Determined to be fine

Disappointment can be bitter

You feel as if you've lost your worth

But without disappointment,

We have nowhere left to go

Hope can be amazing,

You feel ready to face a better future

Because without hope,

We are forever lost

This morning I woke up,

Grasping for perfection,

Tonight I fall asleep --

Perfection eluding me,

But hope residing in my heart.

poem by Beautiful Simplicity Poetry

I'm officially 21!!

OH MY GOD!!! I'm 21!! Feeling so old but young at the same time. New chapter of my life had just begun.... it feels just like a blink of the eyes and i had gone through so many in these 21 years.. mostly happy and wonderful but there're times that're sad too. overall, i lead a very happy, carefree life (all thanks to my parents that took wonderful care for me). but i cant wait for the next 21 years to come again. wat will i turn out to be (of course i'll be a doctor, but how successful am i)? how will i look like? will i be married? how many kids will i have? haha maybe it's too early for all these thoughts but no harm thinking bout them :D most important now is to finish all my exams and go back m'sia in the next 3 weeks:) the rest, i'll take it as the day comes.....

p/s: these are the presents that i got from my frens in moscow

I'm turning 21 soon!!!!!

21!!!! I'm joining the real adult club soon. OMG!! My frens put up a surprise party for me yesterday. (but seriously speaking, i'm not really surprise cos i kinda guess they're gonna celebrate for me :D) but any how, i'm still touched and happy :D Got a huge teddy bear from my frens (Actually i kinda requested for it but i didnt know they took it seriously) . I heard that they bought it like during winter break. That's like half a year ago. WOW!! I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo touch. THANK YOU so much. U guys are awesome. LOVE you guys to the max. There're other presents too from ming yee, mun yee and anna. thanks ppl... We ate, talked, cut cake, took some idiot pics with my teddy. Had alot of fun yesterday. Will always remember that day forever :) XOXO

My bear bear

One Big Happy Family

Veshny, me & Sangeetha

Leatrice, Yee Chiun & me

Adeline, me & Yi Heng

Chee Wei, Nalihni, me & Abhi

Ming Yee, Man Kit, Z Han, Mun Yee, YC & Hong Ching

Jo, Betty & Lily

Ming Yee, me & Mee Yean

Me & my darling bear bear

1st pose

2nd pose

Busy body???

WTF!! getting more and more annoyed by this fella. almost everything that this fella does annoys the hell out of me.

1) complaining that ppl talking behind her back but she's also doing the same thing (and she's the one that started it first, so dont blame others)

2) saying that ppl are busybody and dont ask her directly if they wants to know bout her. pls la, if u're not that weird, we would had ask u straight. we tried to ask and most of the time u said there's nothing. so it's not our fault for not asking u idiot.

3) writing a blog and dont want others to find out. if u dont want ppl to find out, pls write a diary instead and hide it. ppl will eventually find out u're writing a blog though u dont say it out cos u're staying with others.

4) etc....

Just hope that......... nvm.........

G.I.F.T. BBQ

Went for BBQ with GIFT bible study yesterday at a park near my hostel. Luckily it didnt rain yesterday. The weather was fine though it's not sunny but it's freaking cold. This is the first time i BBQ-ed in the temperature of 8*c. We walked to the park and found the perfect spot (by the lake side) for the BBQ. But at that spot, the wind was blowing and everyone is trying to stay near the fire for heat. Setting up the BBQ set, started cooking, then in between ate, joked around, talking,etc... it was fun :)
But half way, there's some stupid thing happen. A few of us tried to go find woods to make a camp fire, crossed a bridge that's already broken, jumped on it, and broke it and scolded by 3 russians who passed by. idiot!! it's already broken la... and the russians treated to call the authority and tell our uni admin. watever la... so we changed out venue to a higher ground and to avoid any troubles. Continue our cooking and then we played a few games. It was fun, and everyone is enjoying themselves.
Towards the end, there's a surprise for me and Rebecca (though for me, it's not that surprise cos i'm the one that went to buy the cake). We're celebrating the May babies. hehe... So they sang b'day song for us, a special song that made for both of us and then fed us cake. And there goes the cream fighting. Shouldnt had chose the cake with soooo much cream. But Jivan already warned me but that's the cake that's worth it's price. hahaha.. but then dun care la.. it's fun anyway. Most of them attacked me instead of Rebecca. so i got cream all over my face, hands, hair and some on my clothes. After that we cleared off the area and walked back hostel at about 8.30 pm. Wow.. we're out for almost 6 hours. Damn tired, thirsty and in the need to pee. hehe.. reach hostel, take shower to cleared off the cream, and then had movie night with my frens. :)

Congrats!!!!

Got the news just now that my sis got through her interview for Sime Darby and now heading for the final interview next tuesday. I'm so proud of u sis.. I knew u had done well in the previous 2 interviews. Hopefully u'll be among the 8 that will be awarded with this scholarship. U should be super happy now since u wont be continuing matrix. Can come back this week and everything will return to normal, as it should be. But if u really didnt get that scholarship (touch wood), dad already said that u'll be going sunway for a'level. So enjoy ur last few days in Kedah, take it as a tiring vacation :)

Dunno Wat I'm Thinking...

I've no idea wat i've been doing for the whole day other than online, watch movie, eat and take shower. Didnt feel like studying though finals are around the corner. Need to clear off my pendings b4 27th May (first paper = physic). sigh... I think i better start wat i'm suppose to do for the whole day. Luckily tomoro's a holiday...

One Day Outing :)

Went for a boat trip along Moscow River yesterday.. with my groupmates, Hong Ching and Yeong Chiang and my bio lecturer. It was fun. Waited for the boat for bout 1/2 hour. It was SUPER hot and sunny that time. I almost melted due to the weather. LOL.. but other than the weather, everything was superb. The view, the wind, etc.. Saw lots of beautiful buildings along the river. And we saw a theme park!! Can go there next time when there's free time. The boat ride last bout 1 hour plus.

my groupmates, Hong Ching & Yeong Chiang

me & teacher

Man Kit, Abhi, Mee Yean & me

me & Mee Yean

On our way back to metro station, we passed a church. So we just went in to have a visit. The church is very beautiful. The drawings on the church wall, though some already faded, but still they're beautiful... Walked around the church, saw ppl praying. Good experiece. After the visit, my frens planned to walk around the brown line but we ended up at red square. haha.. So me, Chee Wei and Mee Yean ended up shopping and the rest went somewhere else. Reach back hostel at bout 9 something. My feet were sored and tired from all the walking (i'm wearing high heels). Ate my dinner, took my shower, watch an episode of 'House MD' then i dozed off....

a small lake on the way to church

in front of the church

one of the church building

i've no idea wat's this but it's beautiful

forced to wear this ugly outfit inside the church compound

XOXO

My sis didnt get her JPA scholarship despite her good result. Damn it!! Hopefully ur reappeal will gets through. In the meantime, just bear wih matrix. Dont worry too much and enjoy urself there. It'll be fun and a challenge for u (since this is the first time u'll be out from house for so long and u DONT eat chilis). I'll call u more often. So no worries k... XOXO

Performance

Went to watch a performance yesterday with my bio lecturer. The hall is at a music school. I'm so excited when i reach there. The place is BEAUTIFUL!! It's her husband's eldest daughter (her husband remarried after the 1st wife past away) and a post-grad student performing. Kinda like a duet on piano (daughter) and violin (post-grad student). 3 songs were performed. One from Tchaikovsky, one from Brahms and one more i've no idea which composer d. It's well performed. The performance was bout 1 hour. Manage to take a few pics with the performers b4 going back. Cant wait to go for another performance in the future.......

Good Luck my dear sis...

Got the news that my dearest sis is going matrix. It's a very sudden decision by my dad. So my sis is not mentally prepared yet. But i think she'll be able to manage it. In the meantime, i'll pray that she got her JPA scholarship. Since that's wat she hope for cos she doesnt want to go matrix. But if u really didnt get, jsust try ur best in Kedah. One year will fly very quickly. I'll go visit u there when i'm back in m'sia. LOVE YOU very much!!!!!!!!!! XOXO

MASSAD 09

MASSAD!! The most hip, important, cant-wait event of the year. The event started at 5 pm. I performed on that day. Opening Chinese dance. Went there early for rehersal. The performance went ok. Not exactly wat we hope for but it's ok. The music went wrong half way, but we manage to pull it off. After the performance, got to relax. hehe... my eyes were so tired half way watching the performance due to the contact lense. I've been wearing it since 10 in the morning. Alot of exciting performance (dances, magic show, lucky draw, etc..) which i missed a few of it cos i'm changing that time. After the performance, we had our dinner. The food were not bad. After eating, as usual, picture time!!! Took quite alot of pics that day. Went back at around 10 something and reach hostel at 11 pm. But it doesnt end there. After reaching hostel, took a few more pics with my groupmates. So tired after a long day. Clean up myself and went to sleep at about 3 am. zzzzzz.......... The whole event got alot of big thumbs up from everyone. Well done my 2nd year senior. Next year will be my batch turn. Hopefully it'll be a blast too.

me & ming yee b4 performance

me & jinli

me & mankit

me & a group of leng luis (including chris)

me & chee wei

me & chris

me, leatrice, chee wei & yee chiun

leng luis >.< leng luis again :D

Group 12a

Happy Easter!!

Celebrated Easter day with my bible study group. Had an easter egg painting competition where we're suppose to paint an egg and give it to someone. I won the competition!!! I'm suppose to give my egg to Rachel :) hehe.. and i received mine from Ei Leen. Had a great day and will always remember it.

Ro, me & Rachel

My groupmates

Me and Rachel